vermin for dinner

6 11 2009

My dad wonderfully stocks our freezer with meat- venison and pheasant which we enjoy throughout the year. Venison chili, pheasant pot pie and all kinds of things that we make from wild game help us to cut down on the meat we buy from the supermarket. I’d like to say that it’s because we’re altruistic about not buying meat from factory farms, and it is in part from our growing awareness about the horrors of the ways animals are treated on these farms. But we also greatly enjoy the fact that the only cost it was to us was the effort of Dave helping my dad to skin the deer and process the meat. I try to stay out of the kitchen when this happens, it just grosses me out too much. Though I grew up in a family with a dad that is a hunter, I really don’t enjoy the process of cooking meat though I do enjoy consuming it in moderation.

On a Friday night awhile ago Dave took what he thought was a pheasant out of our freezer to cook in the crockpot all day. The savory scent of the meat mixed with bay leaves, celery and pepper wafted through the house as the “bird” simmered in it’s juices. I came downstairs from my office to get some coffee  right as Dave was lifting the meat out of the crockpot to debone. It didn’t have wings like a pheasant should. The body wasn’t plump like a pheasant. It was long and skinny with four legs. As Dave held the wiry piece of cooked meat between the tongs it dawned on us that it was not a pheasant, it was a squirrel.

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apparently celebrity chefs are now using squirrel meat. times is tough people.

We briefly debated about whether to eat it while Dave held the fully cooked squirrel mid-air in the kitchen tongs. This debate lasted about 30 seconds before he threw the wiry piece of meat into the trash and and began discussing what else we could have for dinner.

Though I’m fairly adventurous when it comes to what I eat, I just couldn’t bring myself to stomach a creature that I could see climbing the trees in my backyard while I ate it. I think this is the same reason I couldn’t eat fish growing up- I didn’t like the idea that I swam with what I ate. Also, my dad traumatized me with a fish when I was little. He had gone ice fishing and was “teaching” me, his sweet, chubby-cheeked blond three year old daughter how to filet a fish. As he grabbed one of the half-frozen fish from his bucket it started flopping around in front of my face as I stood between my dads arms on a step-stool.  Standing there in my red footie jammies, I started screaming and squirming to get down but my dad simply grabbed the fish that was in front of my face, slit under it’s gills and it stopped flopping around. Since then, no matter how many camping trips with fresh perch cooked over the fire, no matter how many Friday night whitefish dinners are offered at restaurant, I just can’t bring myself to eat fish.

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Fish, I will never say to you "get in my belly."

What are some odd things that you’ve eaten? This is probably one of the more tame things I’ve had/or thought about having. I’m sure there are some good stories about being in other countries that people have about cross-cultural dining experiences! Do share!

 

 

 





does the beet go on?

5 11 2009

I’ve been thinking about the pros and cons of buying a share in a community supported agriculture (CSA) farm since my first year of subscribing has now concluded.. The pick-ups from groundswell farm, my CSA stopped last week with a few hefty butternut squash and some kale as well but now I’m floundering in a sea of indecision of what vegetables to buy at meijer instead of just using what was sent to me in my share.

I kind of liked not having to make choices every week! And I’ve really liked making puns with the word beet. Maybe I should just asparagus you the bad jokes. o.k. I’ll stop now, really.

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I wanna dance with the beet! o.k., last pun, I promise.

Here are the pros from my angle:

  • I liked supporting a local farm run by women and having it be close enough for us to visit and see where our food was grown. I thought this was especially great experiential learning for Reuben.
  • I liked eating seasonally and locally- stuff that was grown in Michigan, because it’s Michigan and not California, Argentina or anywhere else my fruits and veggies are shipped from.

     

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    I really liked the Japanese eggplant in our summer shares!

  • I LOVED trying new veggies! Each week it was like digging into a treasure chest filled with deeply crimson carrots, pungent fresh dill, and crinkly green napa cabbage. I tried stuff I don’t think I would have normally bought.
  • I liked learning to be content with what I had and using what I had rather than feeling like I needed to buy more. I think being part of a CSA forced me to be a more creative and adventuresome cook when I was using what I had.
  • I did feel like I was doing something good for my community and for the planet.

But….there were also some things I didn’t like:

  • Farming is a crap-shoot. Never in my years of eating was I more aware of how weather affects what I eat, what is available and why it might cost more. This was good in the sense that it heightened my awareness of how I’m connected to my food, but we had a cold spring in West Michigan, this meant some pretty skimpy shares those first few weeks. It felt like a bummer having paid for a share and not wanting to buy more but realizing that we needed more than a small head of lettuce and some chives to get us through the week.
  • Which brings me to the other part of that! Overabundance! August hit & we had more produce than we could handle even though we split the share with some friends! I actually think this helped me get back into being more intentional with strive for five I couldn’t help but eat a ton of veggies every day because they’d go bad otherwise! And you, dear blog readers, know I HATE wasting food. So, this was a good and a difficult thing.
  • Dave and I are forgetful people and we travel a lot. I know this sounds totally lame that we would forget to pick up our share, but if you remember my post about how I stole veggies from a homeless shelter this caused a lot of stress this summer when we would be scrambling to pick up our share. It was nice splitting the share with friends because on the weeks we traveled, they just got our share, or we invited another friend to enjoy it. But it did feel a little silly paying for veggies that we weren’t going to eat on the weeks we were gone. :(

Overall, I think I will participate in a CSA again. My friend in Cleveland told me about a weekly CSA where you can just pick up a share on the weeks you’re around. This would totally fit my lifestyle better, but I do understand the need of farmers to have people to pay upfront for logistical reasons and to know how much they’ll need to plant in the spring, not to mention having the cash to pay for seeds.

So, are any other CSA members in this weird place of having to transition back to buying veggies yourself? How do you ease the transition? I went to Meijer to get some green peppers this week and as I gazed at the glistening produce section at my new friends the lovely leeks,brilliant beets and cowabunga cabbage i just needed an excuse to use the word “cowabunga”, I felt so overwhelmed. I wanted to buy it all and have tons of veggies in my fridge again! Help me!





become less of a jerk….i double-dog-dare you.

3 11 2009

It’s November! It’s dark when I wake up and dark when I’m eating dinner! The weather is colder and the brilliant yellow leaves are now mushy wet piles on the ground! I need to buy Christmas presents soon even though I have no money! I need….this sucks…..he’s such a ……if I only could….if she only would….wah, wah, wah. Sound familiar?

Stop it. Right now. There are so many things in our lives that we can complain about and the complaints just seem to roll out of our brain & out from our mouths like a fountain that spits water. Except it isn’t pretty.

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when we complain it just seems to gush out, doesn't it?

Even if I’m not verbalizing complaints, I’m thinking it. And I’m guessing you do too. So, this month we kick of the challenge of practicing thanksgiving, and not just on the day we eat turkey and pumpkin pies. This month my double-dog challenge to you is to stop grumbling and start being thankful. Hopefully, I’ll become less of a jerk and so will you :) Since this is an inward choice that gets reflected in the ways we treat ourselves and other people it can be difficult to measure. So that is why I’m going to have a different challenge to practice gratitude and quantify it each week.

 

Ready? This weeks challenge: Express gratitude for the people that serve you. the crazy target lady"I'm going to put these water wings on a tin can to put my pens in when I write thank-you's in the tub!"The subway sandwich artist. The person at the toll-booth. The lady who swipes your card in your college cafeteria. The clerk at the DMV. All of those people who serve us everyday that are so easy to overlook and forget that they are more than just the next cog in the wheel for getting our groceries home. I got this idea from the sacred matters blog. I kind of had a hard time coming up with a list because I typically don’t make it a point to stop look people in the eyes and say “thanks for not putting my milk and bananas in the same bag! how’s your day going?” This is more than courtesy I’m talking about- it’s acknowledging that everyone is created in the image of God and that to thank someone affirms them as a person who is loved by him. Even if you don’t believe in God this is a great way to care for people who blend into the visual white noise of our lives.

Let me know if you’re going to participate this week! Leave a comment in the next week about how practicing gratitude has impacted your life and the lives of people around you. At the end of the month I’ll select a comment that is especially inspiring and you’ll win this book:

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This book was so inspiring!

Here is an excerpt: “With gleeful exuberance, Ben Patterson submits his compelling case for joy. His winsome stories and thoughtful reflections show how even traditional disciplines such as (yawn) churchgoing and (gulp!) tithing can be hilariously fulfilling when lived out of gratitude for God’s gracious gifts. Once we start to think about all that God has done for us, our thoughts turn inevitably to gratitude and ultimately to gladness. And that is only appropriate, for he has made us to be glad.”

Even if you don’t submit a comment this week about practicing gratitude for people who serve you, leave a comment during the next few challenges & you may just win this book!





water over stones

3 11 2009

In October, the Sidewalk Theologian challenge was to incorporate prayer into our daily rhythms. I found it to be deeply unsatisfying. And I had to assume that you did too if you participated.

Whether praying before meals, praying the daily office from the Northumbria Community or finding new and creative ways to pray like through making something tangible I had hoped that this challenge would remind us of what God is doing internally. Maybe it did for you, but as I was thinking about how unsatisfying it was, I felt nervous- if prayer is connecting with God shouldn’t it be exciting? fullfilling? something? anything? I think one of the difficult things about the prayer challenge is the contrast to last’s months challenge to strive for five and hit a goal of eating five fruits/veggies a day is that prayer is so unquantifiable. To count the number of times I pray seemed far too formulaic- as if I prayed a certain amount of times then I will get X amount closer to God.

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I know when I’ve eaten an apple, carrot sticks, Brussels sprouts, a grapefruit and a handful of blueberries- I had a calendar on my fridge to highlight my healthy activities. But how do you see evidence of internal fruit- generosity, patience, love, peace or contentment?

When I was on the silent retreat last week I was sharing about this with a spiritual director I occasionally meet with while I’m there. For those of you who aren’t familiar with spiritual direction, it is “the contemplative practice of helping another person or group to awaken to the mystery called God in all of life, and to respond to that discovery in a growing relationship of freedom and commitment.” Basically it’s a person who helps me to be aware of the presence of Jesus in my life and reflect on the internal realities of his presence to illuminate and make sense of our relationship. When I was sharing with her about how unsatisfying last month’s prayer challenge was she reminded me of a quote from C.S. Lewis’ book The Weight of Glory:5128SJEJSJL._SL500_AA240_

“Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires, not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.”

As we talked, my director affirmed that doing something like strive for five seems more satisfying because I can control it, quantify it, see how I’ve accomplished the goal or have lost a few pounds in the process. When my director described how I seemed to feel about the seemingly lame prayer challenge she said “the internal world of faith is like stones on the shore- who is to say which wave has made it smooth? which drop of water caused it to crack or has made a hole in the stone? Who is to say which prayer made the difference in your relationship with God? It’s the collective act of faith that over time slowly shapes who you are until you look back and realize that you’re a different person.”

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I loved her description of faith & it made so much sense to me- faith is like water over stones. And when I did look back on my month of praying the compline with Dave each night and the number of other ways I prayed I could see moments where my actions or attitudes towards others had changed. Places of struggle where God had given me strength. Places of irritation where I was experiencing peace. Worries and fears that had been lurking in the back of my mind I was able not only to trust God with these, but to read my journal from the past 4 months and declare about my mad scribbling of anxiety- “what a spaz!” I could joyfully surrender these worries to the God who has never failed me or left me, who always works out his plans in my life for goodness even if it seems weird or difficult at the time.

It was hard to realize how, like the child making mud pies in the slum I am far too easily pleased with the things in my life that I can quantify and control. My director’s reflections were a timely reminder that though a relationship with Jesus is uncontrollable, mysterious and for crying out loud- invisible it is and does result in infinite joy whether I’m experiencing his presence while doing dishes in the midst of a toddler meltdown or meditating on the beauty of Lake Huron in a forest filled with cedar trees.

So- this month stay tuned for the challenge of Practicing Thanksgiving. It will be one of those internal challenges again but I’m going to make it a little more quantifiable- I’ll post the new challenge on Tuesday night. I hope you’ll join me in being intentional about being thankful instead of grumbling or complaining- we could all use a little help with that now that it gets dark at 5:30 at night thanks to stinkin’ daylight savings. But hey, I’m not complaining ;)





homemade halloween

2 11 2009

Here is a visual summary of my weekend of homemade goodness.

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Reuben was slightly squeamish about the pumpkin guts....but not for long....

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covered in pumpkin guts!

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chocolate cream, coconut cream, lemon meringue

I baked three pies.  Two were my grandmother’s favorite- coconut cream and lemon meringue. Grandma has good taste in pies. The other was for my friend Brad’s ordination party. Way to go Brad!

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it was as if my fridge shelf was designed to be a receptacle for pies

I made some artwork to decorate our newly painted bedroom. We have $0 for a decorating budget so I got creative and expressed my growing fixation with peacocks by making these:

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You don't need a fat bank account to make cool things! Just a little creativity and some free time.

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all together now.

I was very pleased with how these turned out & how they look against the new lemongrass color of our walls. Now I just need to find/make some drapes! It only took us 7 years to get around to painting our bedroom :)

Lastly we made some halloween costumes from one of our favorite movies, The Royal Tennenbaums.

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"margot tennenbaum was known for her extreme secrecy"

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Dave busted out his sewing machine to make Ritchie's shirt. my husband has mad skillz yo.

Lastly, we took our little cutie trick-or-treating in our hood where he made out like a bandit. He caught on very quickly that if you said the phrase “trick or treat” people give you lots of candy. Yay America.

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"mama, stop taking pictures of me and let me eat some candy!"

Yay for fun homemade goodness! What kinds of things do you like to make yourself?








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